Sunday, October 26, 2008

Preparing my Heart for Worship

Today I rushed to get ready to go to church. I had a hard time getting out of bed, and by the time I was dressed and ready, I only had a few minutes to read the Bible before running out the door to grab a bit of breakfast and then meet the van that takes us to church. I've gotten into a lazy habit on the weekends of not leaving enough time for quality devotions. Devotions are priority on weekdays: I get up at 6 a.m., shower and or/get dressed (so that I don't fall asleep - changing helps wake me up!) and then spend 30-45 minutes reading and meditating on the Bible and praying. On weekends, however, I've been tired and allowed myself to sleep in as late as possible, not always leaving enough time to have devotions before I have to be somewhere.

I pondered this as I got ready, looking at myself in the mirror as I brushed my hair. I was spending time making my outward appearance look good as I prepared to spend time worshiping, but I was neglecting spending quality time preparing my heart. Sure, I can and do pray as I get ready, but I was allowing my looks to be more important than my inner person. It is indeed important - you don't want to go to church looking as though you just got out of bed! - but I should spend as much time and more preparing my heart as I do preparing my hair.

In God's strength, I'm going to stop allowing devotions to be a lower priority on the weekends. I would rather get 1/2 hour of less sleep than neglect my time with the Lord. I need time to rest and recover, but my spiritual walk is more important in the long run. Plus, my entire outlook on the day is better when I spend the first part of the morning "setting my heart on things above" (Colossians 3:1).

It takes discipline, such as going to bed earlier and not wasting time staying up late just because it is the weekend. I am thankful for God's grace, which gives me the strength to go on and picks me up when I fall. I don't have devotions because it's the "good, Christian thing to do," or because I'm trying to "earn brownie points" with God. I do it because I truly want to know my Father more deeply. Only He can truly prepare my heart to worship Him.


Ella said...

Anna, this is convicting for me. Right now, as Garrett is recuperating, I find myself taking far less time doing the Word by saying I am "serving him." I know there is nothing better than being nourished....thankfully, things are getting back to normal!

Rebekah said...

Wow, that was convicting. I'm afraid I haven't been spending much time in the Word and with the Lord lately. :(
Thank you for the encouragement to keep on!

Anonymous said...

Amen! I too often neglect my devotions on weekends- mainly because those are the two days I actually have to get up and go somewhere! Perhaps I will have to try harder...


MortonClan said...

Anna, thank you so much for writing this-it has convicted me, and encouraged me to spend more time with Him, and "truly want to know Him more deeply." Thanks, and God bless you!!